Much ado about nothing.

Sherwin’s hand-painted backdrop for the Janssen Pharma Bohol Beach Club event yesterday was phenomenal. Of course, we (Fotomoments) basked in the spotlight, too.

OMG! Bryanboy iz on teevee

Unfuckingbelievable! I’m watching Daphne O’s Urbanzone and bam - Bryanboy - on TV. Phew! Bryanboy, Planet Earth’s favorite third world fag.

This guy is really something. And he’s a Pinoy, too. Attaboy!

My manifesto.

(note: I wrote this about five or so years back. i’m publishing it again this 2008 new year’s day to remind myself of this, my manifesto. )

i wanna make a difference.

I wanna wake up and see the world differently. think that it is not such a bad place to live in. think of hope. think of love. of understanding. of anything but me.

i wanna create an impression. in this world, where i am more or less just a tiny speckle on a tiny white sand in an antique hourglass. i would not just think of myself as a mere dot. a spot. a dirt. i may be small, but i’m part of something enormous.

i want to believe. that there is something to believe in. that this is not just make-believe. that I exist. I.

i wanna live. live as if there are so many reasons to. to continue on breathing. taking up space in the moving world. be a being. be.

i wanna smile. laugh and be merry. as though i will never cry again. learn to enjoy my existence. giggle. cackle ‘til my cheeks burn. be happy once again.

i wanna be great. walk miles others have never dared. fly. soar high. be someone. someone.

I wanna be different.

i no longer wanna be anonymous. i wanna be named. not anymore, that unknown being, down the alley. dark. a silhouette. there should be a face. a name. a tag. to call me someone.

i no longer wanna be called someone who I am not. i wanna be rightfully called. my own. that which I can respond to. because it’s me. Me.

i no longer wanna be trampled upon. i wanna fight. assert my right. insist that I be given what I deserve. not be wrongfully accused. not be accused at all. of anything. never.

i no longer wanna be silent. i wanna speak. shout till I lose my voice. scream. let out all that’s in my head. roar.

i no longer wanna live. i wanna die. and say that I ceased to be so another can live. that I have done what I needed to do. have made my place on earth. savored my last breath thinking that it is but the beginning of a better thing out there. Better there.